Mama's True Confessions - To Everyone
When you became bulimic, I tried to help you recover because I loved you and cared about you. But I have a confession to make; A part of me just didn't want you to become thinner than I was. I encouraged you to stop. I told you it wasn't worth it. But after I moved away, I began throwing up and now I can't stop. I'm sorry. I just wanted to let you know.
Dear Little Sister,
When I read your journal and found out you were bulimic, I turned white. I tried to confront you and tell you I was concerned, without giving away that I had invaded your privacy. I wanted you to stop because I wanted you to be happy. But I have a confession to make; A part of me just didn't want you to become thinner than I was. I told you that throwing up your food was the worst thing you could do to yourself. After you got better, I began throwing up and now I can't stop. I'm sorry. I just wanted to let you know.
Dear Ex Boyfriend,
When I was around you, I tried to act happy but I really wasn't. I never felt like I was good enough for you. I have a confession to make; All the times you cooked for me, I ate with a smile but I thought of throwing up the whole time. After we said goodbye, I always threw up in the nearest public bathroom. I broke up with you because I didn't want you to know the real me. I'm sorry. I just wanted to let you know.
Dear Mother and Father,
I have a confession to make; I lie to you every single day. I tell you I ate when I didn't eat. I tell you I didn't eat when I did. I leave the house after meals to go throw up in public restrooms. I take long showers after supper to puke it all up. All the bread and cereal in the house is gone because I ate it in 5 minutes. I don't think about my future anymore. I don't pray to God. I don't love anyone including myself anymore. I haven't talk to you because I don't want to make you angry. On the other hand, maybe you wouldn't believe me because I look like I'm okay. That's why I won't say a word. I'm sorry. I just wanted to let you know.