My story

My story

I am a fourteen year old-girl, and I am really self-conscious about my body. It is absolutely appalling to me. I weigh around 130 pounds and I'm 5'6.

All of my friends are so perfect and skinny it makes me sick. So, I became anorexic, and I did lose weight. But I started getting really sick. I knew I shouldn't keep it up. I started eating again, but then I made myself throw up because I felt guilty after eating.

After this, I started binging and then throwing it all up. Some days I fast, and some days I would eat so much and then throw up. I also dance 3 times a week and exercise sometimes. But I'm not losing any weight. I am staying at 130 pounds and I'm so annoyed.

I really don't want to be bulimic and everyday I try to eat healthy, but I end up losing control. I feel so depressed and sometimes I want to die. I have a boyfriend and he thinks I'm beautiful, and my friends are sometimes worried about me because I often skip lunch at school, and they tell me I look fine too.

But the mirror tells me much different. I am a dancer and this makes it even harder because all of the girls in my class have perfect bodies.

I really need help but I can't seen to tell anybody no matter how much I want to. It's too embarrassing and I'm worried about what my mom or even my friends would think.

I know that I won't stop trying to lose weight because I just hate myself like this. I sometimes try to be anorexic but it's too hard on me because I lose all of my energy and then I can't even dance.

If someone could maybe write me back and help me I would appreciate it. But please don't tell me to tell my mom or anything because I really don't think I can. I just desperately need some advice. I don't want to die.

From,

Candy