My Story, My Problem, My Opinion I am a 20 year old male, 6'4" 245 pounds. I weighed 433 pounds at the age of 16. I lost nearly 200 pounds without medication or surgery, just all natural determination and will power with a proper diet of eating 5-6 small meals per day and exercising 3-4 time per week. This is a great accomplishment that took a lot of hard work and I am very proud of. The only problem is that after losing this weight in 2 years I have loose skin that I have to look at every day. The skin isn't that bad because of the weight training I incorporated into my weight loss, but it looks like I am still so fat. It's just not fair to have this problem after working so hard to lose the weight. Anyway, my problem began in my attempt to maintain the weight. At one time I was down to 225 pounds but looked to skinny for my build, so I tried to find a happy medium in my calorie intake to build muscle and gain a few pounds. However, muscle isn't what I gained, for what reason I don't know. I gained fat and that fat really emphasized the dreadful look of my loose skin causing an inner tube look around my waist. I couldn't stand looking at this fatty appearance so I became depressed. I thought about my appearance a lot throughout the day even dreaming about it in my sleep. From these thoughts and depression, I began to eat a lot and gained a lot of weight even though I wanted to lose weight. I would eat until I got sick. I would find a secretive place to throw the food up. This is where my bulimic problem began and has continued for 2 years now. I want to stop. I have tried to stop many times. Quitting for 4 months and going right back to it once Christmas was over. Sometimes, I go a couple of weeks without doing it, but sometimes I do it everyday, up to 4 times times a week or so. My teeth are getting weak and I feel angry all the time. I sometimes get light headed and have been diagnosed as anemic. I haven't told anyone about my problem, but I have to find a way out. I need to overcome my weight problem, now I have to overcome my bulimia. I just don't know how. Admitting my problem to someone will help me, I believe, so I posted my confession here for someone to see and read. Thanks for reading it. It really means a lot to me and helps my confidence to beat this addiction that is so overwhelming and hard to escape much like having a drug addiction. Something you can't just get away from its you and you see it everyday. It's always there to remind you, and haunt you, and this to me is what makes an eating disorder so hard to overcome. i believe the problem can be overcome, it just takes time and determination as well as self actualization and self coaching. Anyone out there with this problem please have hope, for you're not the only one out there. Know that others like you suffer the same thing everyday and you're not alone. Know that someone is suffering with you. Just hang in there, for I know everyone has the subconscious mind to overcome anything, and to do anything, it is just a matter of how much you want it and how hard you chase your determination. Don't give up. Don't lose hope, for it's all you have. Cherish it and use it for your own good.
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