Bulimic and Depressed

I'm not sure how my eating disorder started. I just remember being 12 years old and weighing 35kg. Which may not seem like much, but I couldn't even look in the mirror without bursting out crying.

"I'm so fat!" I would complain to my boyfriend. "You're not fat at all" my boyfriend would reply. It didn't help.Things just seemed to be getting worse everyday.

My eating disorder continued for about 6 months. And by this time I was suffering with depression. I had to think about everyone else around me at the same time. My boyfriend was angry at me, he hated me for being bulimic.

I started cutting my wrists. It was the only thing that made me feel better. It felt like everyone had turned against me, I thought I was alone. It seemed to me that no-one cared about me, and I thought if I was to kill myself would anyone care?

I carried on being bulimic. I didn't want my boyfriend to dump me. "I'm not bulimic, I'm all better." I would lie to him. But things got worse, he saw the cuts on my wrist and we began fighting a lot. "He just doesn't understand" I would say to my best friend. I had no-one. Later on my boyfriend found out I was still bulimic, but he didn't yell at me, he just said he wanted to help.

I cryed everyday at school. And school wasn't any good either. I was failing every subject. But that didn't matter. I tryed to focus on not throwing up. But I was addicted.

My depression got worse. I started smoking (nearly 13yr). Things got worse at home, with me and my mom fighting all the time. I didn't have anyone to talk to.

By my 13 birthday I had quit smoking (which made my depression even worse). I was still bulimic. Today I am 13 years and 5 months. I am still depressed, but I am getting help for that. And I am still bulimic.

I have found it impossibly to give up. I weigh 30kg and my weight is dropping fast. I am on the road to recovery.

My advice to anyone suffering with the same problem is to get help while you can. Do not leave it to long. Bulimia is deadly. I have been to the doctor, and my results were that if I didn't stop I would die, although I may not make it, I feel better knowing my story may help other people. And always know that there is people that love you and care about you.

If you would like to know more about my story.
You can email me on holdens_rule_peter_brock@hotmail.com

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