Cruel...My personal eating disorder story Well, I am 18 and a senior in high school. My whole life I
watched my mom struggle with her eating problems. She was very cruel with my
weight and I told my self I would never allow something like that to
control me. So, these feelings took over me. I felt so ashamed, (I am a Christian) I shouldn't feel this way. But then how could God forgive me anyway..I was always failing him. I stared to hurt myself. (not cut) but make myself stay in hot/cold places for a long time. Skip a few meals, stay up real late, and workout a lot. Just because I felt unworthy. I would skip meals for days. But one time I lost control and ate a lot and felt so bad that I threw up. (Unlike a lot of people) I enjoyed it. so I made it a goal to do that once everyone went to bed. But, what I didn't know was how much control it took from me. That's all I cared about. I
became angry, bitter and very sad! As time went on it got worse. Grades
dropped, I stared to suck at sports and I hated God. I started to throw up
20 times a day. I became so fearful that I was going to die, that I never
slept.
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