Our diet plan, how our diet plan turned into Bulimia

Our plan

My names Chrissy. I'm 19 years old. I'm 5'3 and I weight 94 pounds. I am also Bulimic.

My story started about 3 years ago. It wasn't supposed to turn out like this. At least not this far. And not to me.

I started out weighing 154 pounds. I thought I was alright. I didn't care about my weight. But, then as I got older and met more people that were skinny, and they had boyfriends, something I never had. So, I figured, in order to get one I had to be like them. They have nice bodies. Nice hair. Nice everything. And look at me, I'm fat and I wonder why no guys like me!

One day my friend told me that she had to tell me a secret. She wanted to lose weight. And I told her I wanted to do the same. So, we came up with this plan that were going to set goals with a start and stop day to throw up. It didn't work. At least not for me. She just wanted to lose 15 pounds. I wanted it all off until I looked like a model.

We did it together for a week. We would binge and purge at each others houses. We would pat each others backs if we had too. I just wanted to be skinny, and so did she.

But, I took it to far. I would take about 10 laxatives a day. And be up all night in the bathroom. I would lose 5 pounds in two days. I was loving it. And after a while I didn't even need to stick a toothbrush down my throat. I would bend over and it would come out by its self.

Then, it got really bad. After I would finish eating, when I was out with my friends or someone else, it would just come all back up. It sucked so bad. Everyone found out. I even did it at work.

By the time I reached 110 pounds I looked beautiful.That's when all the comments started coming, and all the guys wanted to talk to me, I was beautiful. So I kept doing it. I liked the results. But by the time I got down to 100 pounds, that's when the nasty comments started coming.

Everyone used to talk about me saying I did drugs. I was smoking crack. Snorting coke. Taking pills. Shooting up. But, no one really knew what I was really doing, not like it was any better. I have to shop in the kids section at the stores.

I really hate it now. And I can't stop myself. My teeth are see threw now. My hair is so thin. I have stomach ulcers and acid reflux. Nothing can make me stop. I'll never be able to eat right again. Nothing is going to be right again.

So please, if you read this. Don't start. Even if you say your going to do it for a little bit. That's what I said, and now look at me. I don't look good, and hardly any boys like me. My friend stopped because she never took it as far as I did, I wish I would have stopped a while ago. It hurts me. Its not worth it. Find a healthy way to get skinny. Just don't do this, please. Do the thing I wish I would have done.

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