Everyday Is A New Day! "Everyday is a new day," I would say to myself and pretend tomorrow would be better. Tomorrow will be different. Well yeah, it's not Monday anymore, but the same struggles and bad feelings are still there. They don't just creep off in my sleep, but they sometimes show up in my dreams. I suffer from bulimia. Like many people who suffer, I chose to keep it to myself. I guess that is part of the disease, to be sneaky and mysterious, but for me that is the worst thing. I have always been open about my problems and I' ve always been able to talk to people about things most people would be embarrassed to talk about. But, I enjoy embarrassing moments, I live for them! It's part of my quirky personality. Although, I don't feel very honest when I describe myself anymore. My bulimia has gotten really bad and I feel like I am mean and rudely sarcastic. I feel under pressure with the smallest tasks. I find sorry excuses to flake on people and class. All I have in life right now is school, and I can't even dedicate myself to school. It use to make me happy, courageous, motivated and creative, but now I dread getting ready and seeing people. I hate to leave the house, but I hate to be home alone. On times when no one is around and I have that little thought about food, I freak. I try so hard to think of something else because I can not be alone. I used to be able to be alone, actually. Now, I don't even know who I am anymore. I wish I could give up and turn myself in, tell someone, or go get help, but I am not as courageous. I feel like I am dying a slow death. That isn't very courageous, now is it? |
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