Dating and my eating disorder, exercising and my eating disorder, I am not healthy

Why Not!

I was always in very good shape as a child. I was always out with friends, playing sports, and eating regularly.

When I started High School, I was about the same size as all the other girls in school. I started dating on and off and then I started dating a guy I stayed with for three years.

The first year was good. We hung out with friends and went outside and did things together. But then the second year of us dating, we became this couple where we liked being alone. Hanging out at either of our houses. Watching movies, cooking dinner, and blowing off our friends.

That is when I started gaining weight and so did he. He made me drop all the friends I had and stop playing sports. I was only to hang out with him. At that time I thought "why not", I thought I loved him so I did it.

Within the second year of us dating, I went from weighing 120 all the way up to 140 then 145, 150 and then finally I hit 155. I started hating myself for how I looked and I blamed myself.

I started exercising and working out again, but I was in the habit of eating fast food and not doing anything but hanging around the house.

I didn't have enough energy. I started not eating at all. This went on and off for awhile, but then I started not eating all the time.

I was disgusted with myself for eating a sandwhich during my school lunch hour, so I would make myself throw it up, and not eat anything else for the rest of the day.

Now, I am single, and I have a serious eating disorder. I thought I was doing the right thing, but now I am more unhealthy than I was when I had gained those 20 pounds.

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