My Secret

I am 17 years old and is currently a sophomore. I am here to tell you my secret. I have a problem and I don't know how to stop it. I am bulimic.

I am not sure when it started, but I guess it was towards the end of 8th grade when I began to see that high school girls were all slim.

It seemed like you had to be skinny, so all the boys would look at you. Being skinny would mean being the center of attention.

I began to slowly skip meals. Sometimes I would not eat for days. The longest time I went without eatin was a week and then when I would eat, I would go to the bathroom and look in the mirror. I looked fat.

I began to see the areas I was not liking so I would make myself vomit. You can say I stuck my fingers down my throat. I still do it sometimes, when I look in the mirror and don't like what I see.

I don't know how to stop. I try, but whenever I look in the mirror, I think, what boy would ever be with me when I'm so fat.

I weigh 108 pounds. I am still not happy about how I look. I need your help and advice. I'm scared to go to a doctor because I don't want to feel ashamed and I don't want my parents to find out. I have already done things to make them ashamed of me.

I want to lose weight and be happy, but I want to do it the right way. I don't want to endanger myself any more. So, where do I start?

Accessibility Policy| Terms Of Use| Privacy Policy| Advertise with Us| Contact Us| Newsletter

Sitemap

Mamas Health Inc. does not provide medical advice, diagnosis or treatment and use of this website constitutes acceptance of the Terms of Use.

©2000 - 2012 MamasHealth, Inc.™. All rights reserved

By submitting your story to MamasHealth.com you hereby grant us permission to publish it and edit it for length and content, as necessary, without monetary compensation. In return you will receive a short bio and link to your website or other contact information.