In Silence This is all I know I am 39 years old and I have been bulimic since I was 15. I was hospitalized 4 times by the time I was 21 and almost died so many times. My potassium dropped to a 1.7 at one time which scientifically, I should not have been alive. I am sure it was that low a lot based on how I felt, but that was the only time I allowed anyone to take me to the hospital. After all that, I became so tired of everyone hounding me on it that I hid it for years, and I still struggle with it. Before the age of 21, I also abused laxatives to an extreme that you would not grasp. Becoming pregnant is what made me stop the laxatives. I would not ever want to hurt my children for anything, so I stopped the laxatives and have not done them since, which is going on 19 years. However, the purging is a constant battle for me. I don't think it is for the reasons that I started purging as much as it is "this is all I know". I don't know how to do anything else. I am a silent bulimic and my kids know absolutely nothing about my history of it. This is an every day struggle for me, but I wish so much that I could live a normal life when it comes to food, and sometimes I wonder if that will ever happen. I am not one to share this with anyone at all. This is a part of me that I wish to keep unsaid and hid. However, I want you young people to know that if you start this then you may never stop, and it is not worth it. Get counseling and work through the issues you have within yourself. Do not get to the place that I am, because "this is all I know". |
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