I Started Dieting

I am going to be a senior this fall at Pioneer High School. I used to be a happy, smart, beautiful, pleasant girl to be around back in middle school until I started dieting. 

At first, I just wanted to lose 5 pounds for my swimming class because I thought people would like me  better and I would go faster.

In freshman year of high school everything spun out of control. At first it was depression. I became suicidal at one point and tried to kill myself. I ended up in the psych unit at University of Michigan Hospital. 

When I got out I wanted to control something, so I started severely restricting.  Within the months of March to May I had lost 20 lbs. That was when my therapist sent me to partial care.  I was there a month. I past out and was unconscious.  That was when my psychiatrist decided that I needed to go to residential care. 

I started at River Centre Clinic a week later.  At the River Centre Clinic, I began to eat better and felt good. When I got out and faced the real world I went straight back to my eating disorder. 

I felt ashamed of my body because I went from 106 to 123 pounds in 3 months. I felt so big! I started my sophomore year of high school and restricted till my birthday in April. April 9th was my birthday and it was the first day I purged.  It started out a couple of times a week but after a year I was purging multiple times a day. 

I started binging in the spring of my junior year.  I ended up back in the hospital 6 times during the second semester of my junior year.

Now, I am currently still struggling just as much. I am determined to get better. I know that my eating disorder has taken up way to much of my life and if I stay in it, I will only die.  I still purge, but I am slowly tapering off.

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